Learn to love the questions themselves….

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.
Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is, to live everything.
Live the questions now.
Perhaps you will then gradually,
without noticing it,
live along some distant day into the answer.” 
Rainer Maria Rilke ‘Letters to a Young Poet’ (1934)
In the midst of another mind altering change…i don’t know for sure where i am headed, all i know is that, in a way, i’ve been here before. Changes are a part of life. I’ve completely resisted change in the past, felt put-upon, and tried to keep it all the same….on the other hand, i’ve been through SOOOO much change over the past ten years, that now….i am resolved to just wait and see what’s next.
there were some serious problems, things that happened that could have crushed me, should have crushed me…but didn’t.
living to see the other side, gives you a grace to wait out the next storm without freaking out.
that’s where i am now.
it’s an almost comfortable spot to be.
  i am painting it out. writing it out.  living it out.
one day at a time.
what is behind the next door?
If there is one door in the castle you have been told not to go through, you must. Otherwise, you’ll just be rearranging furniture in rooms you’ve already been in.”   ~Anne Lamott