Get psyched about a project, plan it down the minut details, plan some more, get more excited, start working on it….take a break, decide it wasn’t quite worth it and fizzle out. Beat myself up that I didn’t follow through…ooo shiny thing….get psyched about a new project, start planning….
Work extra hard, impress all the right people. Get my foot in the door. Procrastinate. Don’t say no to anything. Start too many side projects, get overloaded, lose opportunities.
Start new workout/diet/schedule go gung ho for a few days, skip one workout/make a “bad” food choice/stay up too late….sabotage.
Wait until the last possible moment to get started on a project. Make it as difficult as possible to pull it together by the deadline, either by not having the right material on hand, or by running on fumes because I stayed up too late again, or had too much caffeine, or any amount of sugar. (I don’t handle sugar well)
I can see the pattens..and yet at this moment, as I am typing this post, I am self sabotaging myself. I have financial goals to hit by the end of this month…but, am putting off doing what needs to be done AND, have only managed a few hours of sleep last night. Time to take out the mole.